my last post before abandoning this blog of mine 2 years ago was about hiring a maid/looking for a baby-sitter/daycare centre for my twins before their arrival. i was about 3 months+ preggie at that time. we took our own sweet time as we had plenty of time to waste then.
one fine day, i received first hand news on our company restructuring plan and gotta know that my dept would be eliminated mercilessly! boy i was feeling terrible about losing my job and was really lost, couldn't figure out as to how to continue living with additional expenses when the twins came along. however, at the same time i was jumping with joy! it was a mixed feeling, but the feeling of being on top of the world was perfect on the day i finally received the confirmation. to me, the baby-sitter search was put to an abrupt stop! i was going to take care of my twins MYSELF! that means i was going to be a full-time mommy! i was elated, over-joyed, thank god for granting me my wish!
life didn't come easy after that...and i don't mean financially. i was a full-time mommy for a period of 10 long months! and what did i learn after that? never to become a stay at home mum again!
i was really drained to the max, going to bed with flat battery everyday. sleepless nites, pumping milk every 3 hourly (as a result of 100% breast-feeding to twins! i kid you not!), having meals at the oddest hours --> breakfast at 12pm, lunch at 3pm, dinner at 9pm, supper at 12am, waking up at odd hours, stop going for facial sessions for 2 years (stopped when i was in my 3rd trimester), looked skinny (as the hokkien says 'skin wrap bones'), sunken cheeks, looking really exhausted and as if i was suffering from a cronic disease (yes, that's what my friends asked when they saw me in the malls). i lost quite a great deal of weight. from a pre-pregnancy weight of 50kg to 78kg; my last weight on the day before c-section, to 45kg 3 months after delivery. i was considered under-weight for a year plus; couldn't fit into my old clothes and was looking physically ghostly! i rarely took any phots at that time, that's because i really looked like a ghost then!
i have been dieting all my life but to no avail. i thought i was going to be on diet till i reach 50 years of age, luckily giving birth helped me lost all the unwanted weight. but i didn't like it. i lost weight too drastically, it made me looked so much older than my true age. i wasn't taking care of my physical appearance then, i didn't since i wasn't going anywhere, just stayed at home all the time, with the usual routine trips to mum's & in laws' on weekends. that's it. then i got scared that i would look anerotic so much so i started eating like a pig. i would have 2 helpings for each meal, topping up with snacks in between. for the first time of my life, i wanted to put on weight!! it was fun O.o
well, i started putting on weight after i stopped breast-feeding. i'm now back to my normal self, but with 2kg below my pre-pregnancy weight. it was my wish weight! when i was dieting, i always wished for 47kg weight...and now i'm at 48kg and still increasing. i'm not complaining, in fact i'm way too glad to be what i am now. at least i look fleshy - a bit and i like the way i look now. i love myself minus the bulging tummy.
Monday, January 3, 2011
happy new year 2011!!!
thank godness i don't earn a living blogging. i've been wanting to start my own blog since aeons ago; well, actually i did have a blog before. started so eagerly when i was 3-4 months preggie??? i don't remember anymore. i always thought that the blog would still be there all the time, so i would be able to continue "blogging" anytime i want in future (in this case, future never came till today). guess what! i procrastinated 2 years!!! my favourite phrase is: how time flies like nobody's business! i blogged halfway in the middle of my pregnancy, stopped due to laziness and was hopeful i can continue when the lazy bug went away but it didn't!!! i wanted to capture my preggie moments...didn't quite make it. i wanted to blog again after giving birth...didn't make it also. and now my twins are 20 months already. blogging re-appears in my 2011 resolution list, i'm 3 days behind time now :(
well, actually i wanted to continue using my old blog. tried extremely hard to recall the login id & password but couldn't log in! so i created a new blog and started a new post and halfway typing, i went back to the login page again & tried to re-login, IT WORKED!!! so i copied & pasted this post into the old blog. yippie!!! what am i going to do with my newly created blog then? ooppss!! will figure out later how to delete the new blog.
i'm finally blogging again...i'm soooooooo proud of myself for the strong determination! kudos to cindy!!!
well, actually i wanted to continue using my old blog. tried extremely hard to recall the login id & password but couldn't log in! so i created a new blog and started a new post and halfway typing, i went back to the login page again & tried to re-login, IT WORKED!!! so i copied & pasted this post into the old blog. yippie!!! what am i going to do with my newly created blog then? ooppss!! will figure out later how to delete the new blog.
i'm finally blogging again...i'm soooooooo proud of myself for the strong determination! kudos to cindy!!!
Thursday, November 13, 2008
hiring a maid
i was chatting with my aunties a couple of weekends ago and upon learning that i'm going to have twins, they shared with me a brilliant idea (well, the idea is brilliant according to them, not for me though) on how i should go about handling the twins; as in who to baby-sit them after i finish my maternity leave.
they suggested that i should hire an Indon maid, it's definitely much more cheaper than sending the twins to the baby-sitter. the current baby-sitter market rate that i know from my colleagues are ranging from rm550-650 for daycare only and rm750-850 for day & nite care, per month, per baby. baby-sitter only takes care of the baby and that's it. we still gotta supply them the babies' daily neccesities and after adding all the cost up, all that would cost a bomb to an ordinary employee like myself & cl. so there they are, bringing me the maid-hiring suggestion. not only the fee is cheaper, a maid also takes care of the babies and helps around with the housework and probably cooks too. that would help ease my burden a lot. if i'm concern about having the maid alone at home with the 2 kids, i can always send her to my mum's house which is just across the road from mine. she can be stationed there from morning till evening and i could fetch 3 of them back to my house again after work. this routine will be repeated daily.
as convenient as it might sounds, the idea doesn't sound a bit compelling to me and my mum at all! why, my mum has gone through her days with the maid and she has vowed never to have maid anymore for the rest of her live. that maid would be our first and last one we'd hire. thus, we both are not even considering what my 2 aunties were suggesting. interesting stories about this maid of ours will be in another post.
both aunties of mine even did a calculation on how much i could save up if i get a maid for 3 consecutive years; renewing her contract for another 2 years after the first. money is one thing...never-ending headaches & problems are another thing. after hearing horror stories from those who've maid at homes and encountering one myself, it's a big no no. i can't imagine while you hope to ease your burden from hiring a maid, in the end, you end up solving problems created by her. i would rather send my twins to the baby-sitter, i haven't decided whether to send for day care only or day & nite care (day & nite care would be my choice, if only my financial situation allows it). or may be i can be a full time stay at home mum..who knows. i have about 6 more months to decide what's best.
by the way, i found one confinement centre that provides child care too. day care for rm500 and day & nite care for rm900. probably i can do some bargaining with the boss and get some cheaper rate for sending 2 babies. i'm going to visit the home again next month and place my booking if everything goes well.
they suggested that i should hire an Indon maid, it's definitely much more cheaper than sending the twins to the baby-sitter. the current baby-sitter market rate that i know from my colleagues are ranging from rm550-650 for daycare only and rm750-850 for day & nite care, per month, per baby. baby-sitter only takes care of the baby and that's it. we still gotta supply them the babies' daily neccesities and after adding all the cost up, all that would cost a bomb to an ordinary employee like myself & cl. so there they are, bringing me the maid-hiring suggestion. not only the fee is cheaper, a maid also takes care of the babies and helps around with the housework and probably cooks too. that would help ease my burden a lot. if i'm concern about having the maid alone at home with the 2 kids, i can always send her to my mum's house which is just across the road from mine. she can be stationed there from morning till evening and i could fetch 3 of them back to my house again after work. this routine will be repeated daily.
as convenient as it might sounds, the idea doesn't sound a bit compelling to me and my mum at all! why, my mum has gone through her days with the maid and she has vowed never to have maid anymore for the rest of her live. that maid would be our first and last one we'd hire. thus, we both are not even considering what my 2 aunties were suggesting. interesting stories about this maid of ours will be in another post.
both aunties of mine even did a calculation on how much i could save up if i get a maid for 3 consecutive years; renewing her contract for another 2 years after the first. money is one thing...never-ending headaches & problems are another thing. after hearing horror stories from those who've maid at homes and encountering one myself, it's a big no no. i can't imagine while you hope to ease your burden from hiring a maid, in the end, you end up solving problems created by her. i would rather send my twins to the baby-sitter, i haven't decided whether to send for day care only or day & nite care (day & nite care would be my choice, if only my financial situation allows it). or may be i can be a full time stay at home mum..who knows. i have about 6 more months to decide what's best.
by the way, i found one confinement centre that provides child care too. day care for rm500 and day & nite care for rm900. probably i can do some bargaining with the boss and get some cheaper rate for sending 2 babies. i'm going to visit the home again next month and place my booking if everything goes well.
Monday, November 10, 2008
long lunch break
lunch with my dear friend was a long one. i left from my office at 11.35am, reached the mall around 11.50am (thanks for tailing behind 2 cars which were hogging the road), had lunch till 1.45pm and finally back to work at 2.15pm. even so, we didn't get to finish our chat as both of us have lots of stories to tell! imagine we haven't updated each other for >2 months now :P
we didn't go to sakae sushi. my friend suggested wong kok restaurant when i called her before leaving the office. i had seafood cheese baked rice with plain water :( simply because the set that i ordered came with only 2 choices of drinks; coffee & milk tea. i can't take both at this time, and i didn't want to order other drinks which are normally too sweet to my liking. plain water was a right choice as it helped washed down the generous amount of cheese from the baked rice.
my friend has gone back to her normal shape, just a little extra fat here & there but i guess that's normal considering she's not a small frame person. she told me she's got 10kg more to lose. her baby will be taken care by her sister who is a full-time housewife, so i'm waiting to see how long does one who doesn't take care of the baby herself take to go back to her normal pre-pregnancy weight. :P
i can't wait for her to go back to work so that i have one more person to chat with during work. hopefully i can get helpful baby tips from her *wink*
gosh...my life is gonna be all about pregnancy & baby now. but i'm loving it!
we didn't go to sakae sushi. my friend suggested wong kok restaurant when i called her before leaving the office. i had seafood cheese baked rice with plain water :( simply because the set that i ordered came with only 2 choices of drinks; coffee & milk tea. i can't take both at this time, and i didn't want to order other drinks which are normally too sweet to my liking. plain water was a right choice as it helped washed down the generous amount of cheese from the baked rice.
my friend has gone back to her normal shape, just a little extra fat here & there but i guess that's normal considering she's not a small frame person. she told me she's got 10kg more to lose. her baby will be taken care by her sister who is a full-time housewife, so i'm waiting to see how long does one who doesn't take care of the baby herself take to go back to her normal pre-pregnancy weight. :P
i can't wait for her to go back to work so that i have one more person to chat with during work. hopefully i can get helpful baby tips from her *wink*
gosh...my life is gonna be all about pregnancy & baby now. but i'm loving it!
my dear friend is back!
last nite one of my friends sms-ed me asking whether i wanted to go lunch with her. she's my dear friend who's going to finish her maternity leave soon and will be back to the reality a.k.a working world again next week. i quickly replied her yes! i haven't seen her for months now, even before she went to deliver, i really wonder how she looks like now. she told me she needs to groom herself thoroughly before going back to work. she's just trimmed her eye brow, has an appointment with the hair dresser on thursday and now the most important thing is to look for new clothes to wear! that's really a lot of shopping to be done...women just love it (only when they have nice figure to fit into easily).
i've seen many ladies still spotting big tummy after coming back from their maternity leave. i dread that moment myself, but don't think i could help it, could i? i do not have a big frame, thank god for that, but that doesn't mean that i don't put on weight easily. eventhough my tummy is still not that visible at 4 months, i guess my butt expands faster than my tummy!!! that's the first thing people around me notice when i was confirmed pregnant. sigh...
back to my lunch date later on, i'm still thinking what to eat. my friend has asked me to think about it, oh, i'm craving for japanese food as usual :P been eating sakae sushi for 2 consecutive weeks now...but i'm still not sick of it yet! another week of sakae sushi....whee!!!
i've seen many ladies still spotting big tummy after coming back from their maternity leave. i dread that moment myself, but don't think i could help it, could i? i do not have a big frame, thank god for that, but that doesn't mean that i don't put on weight easily. eventhough my tummy is still not that visible at 4 months, i guess my butt expands faster than my tummy!!! that's the first thing people around me notice when i was confirmed pregnant. sigh...
back to my lunch date later on, i'm still thinking what to eat. my friend has asked me to think about it, oh, i'm craving for japanese food as usual :P been eating sakae sushi for 2 consecutive weeks now...but i'm still not sick of it yet! another week of sakae sushi....whee!!!
Thursday, November 6, 2008
the shocking good news
i still remember the day i went for my routine pregnancy checkup at week 7. it was just another normal checkup and as usual, i prayed for my baby to be growing healthily. that would be the only words that i would want to hear from the gynae. never would i thought another good news was in store for me on that fateful day! i had always hope for a pair of twins; so that i could kill 2 birds with one stone :) but it was just merely a wish, nothing more.
was i shocked? i definitely was! my heart was jumping with joy. when i regain my composure, the thought of bringing two babies into the world at one time does give me a little scare though. the diapers, the bottles, the sleepless nights, etc...and i begin to wonder, how on earth are we going to cope with 2 babies? i had no idea how it would be like but hearing my sister's daily rant, i know that whatever she faces; i would face it double. little did i know at the time that the most stressful part of having twins was already upon us...the pregnancy.
this is my first pregnancy and it's going to be one very exciting journey!! i'm all geared up to enjoy this long 9 months journey already. whee!!!
was i shocked? i definitely was! my heart was jumping with joy. when i regain my composure, the thought of bringing two babies into the world at one time does give me a little scare though. the diapers, the bottles, the sleepless nights, etc...and i begin to wonder, how on earth are we going to cope with 2 babies? i had no idea how it would be like but hearing my sister's daily rant, i know that whatever she faces; i would face it double. little did i know at the time that the most stressful part of having twins was already upon us...the pregnancy.
this is my first pregnancy and it's going to be one very exciting journey!! i'm all geared up to enjoy this long 9 months journey already. whee!!!
Wednesday, November 5, 2008
just some casual rants
lately i've been feeling rather tired. is it due to pregnancy or am i mentally exhausted from looking at the pc too long a period; both at work and off work? i guess both factors do contribute a lot.
i've been feeling rather nausea too. this is definitely one the pregnancy symptoms. my colleague told me that this feeling would last until i deliver. godness gracious! it's making me very uncomfortable!!!
do other mothers experience this too?
i've been feeling rather nausea too. this is definitely one the pregnancy symptoms. my colleague told me that this feeling would last until i deliver. godness gracious! it's making me very uncomfortable!!!
do other mothers experience this too?
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