a wedding invitation that i dread to attend

my cousin will be getting married this sunday, 7sep08. i have decided not to attend it ever since I heard about the wedding months ago but dad says no way, this is a wedding of my cousin with the same surname (paternal side), so there's no reason for me to not attend it. don’t get me wrong here. i’m not saying that I dislike wedding invitations but this is an exceptional case. it's not that i am disliking this cousin of mine but it's his sister that i really hate. my extended families have more girls than boys, so we used to be very close when we were young; young as in during schooling days. this despite the fact that we only saw dad’s siblings plus their kids a.k.a my cousins few times a year, namely during chinese new year and my late grandparents’ birthdays. however, there’s this one incident that happened few years back during our usual chinese new year gathering that I developed hatred towards this particular cousin of mine. that incident has been kept in the corner of my mind and i doubt it will be erased from my memory…talk about strong hatred feeling!

it’s a custom that we had paternal family gathering on the second day of chinese new year and for few consecutive years, we had buffet lunch at one of the low-profile hotels in sungai petani. you see, i had taken a liking in photography (shame to say that my skills have not improved further :P) ever since i was a young girl. therefore on occasions like this, i would just take random pictures and sometimes, invite some cousins to snap pictures together for remembrance. most of them were ok and waited while i went to get this particular cousin. she was in the midst of taking food when i asked her to join us but she sort of ignored me and didn’t say a word. I didn’t feel anything then and presumed she will come to us when she’s finished taking whatever she wanted from the buffet spread. after waiting for some time, she just proceeded to eat, showing no sign of wanting to join us for our photo sessions. i felt disturbed but dismissed the feeling away as quickly as it came as i was thinking she might want to grab a few bites to suppress her hunger first before joining us. however, she continued to eat as if nothing happened. as a courtesy, i went over to invite her again and was all excited to click my camera away. i gladly said ‘come, let’s go to take photos.’ she didn’t budge a bit and just told me bluntly (without even looking at me!) that she didn’t want to snap any photos. full stop and she continued enjoying her food like nobody’s business. i was stunt at her abrupt response. what a rude girl! what is wrong with taking photos with your cousins? i didn’t remember us provoking her and even if she didn’t want to take photos with us, at least just have some courtesy to tell us off nicely. i got so fed up i walked away with black face and went to join my other cousins. i really can’t tolerate this kind of people who thinks highly of themselves and walk with nose in the air. what makes you feel so superior with i-don’t-know-what-you-feel-superior-with and does it disgust you if you take some moments to pose some pictures with us? what is wrong with this kind of people?!

i know it’s unfair to boycott the brother’s wedding due to such a small child play incident. i am just being childish. moreover, besides this wedding, we’re definitely not going to see them anymore for any celebrations or occasions in years to come. we barely keep in touch nowadays ever since grandpa & grandma passed away. but since this wedding is the first grandson in LIM’s family, dad is the honourable guest (is he?) and he would make sure that all of us attend and occupy a table; my family makes a perfect table of 10 minus 1.

can I escape this wedding?